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I was priviledge enough to have the company of Ms Dawn Penny at the recent Women in Spirit Brunch on 09 August. Here is her email that she sent to me and was happy to share with the rest of you after the event. I am most grateful to Dawn for her willingness to share..to share her hopes, her dreams and most importantly her vunerability.
NAMASTE!
NAMASTE!
Wow, still feeling so great after we all came together in beauty and grace at your wonderfully organised breakfast. Loved the space we shared, so extra special that we were in a personal space, one which is held together with so much TLC.
I have been spending more and more time with my inner child since the talk, spending good quality time with my child self, and loving it!! and can start to feel her loving me back. A very gentle and subtle loving which I am nurturing. Nurturing me for a change, not just others :)
And with that, also being so much more aware of my 'inner critical parent' So much so, I am able to hear how much other people critise in my outer world... Did not realise how much of this happens on a hourly basis... People are constantly
complaining, or being hard on themselves. No wonder I am dissatisfied with my life, if I am being critical of myself, then I am naturally being critical of my life and life around me.
In this coming back to me, the inner time, listening to myself, I am realising that the life I am currently living, is what I dreamed about 18 months ago, I AM LIVING the life I dreamed of!! And I am still dissatisfied... Interesting to
observe (it is taking will-power here not to slip back into the familiar judging self)
I am seeing the judging of the dissatifaction is causing resistance, I am blocking myself... So I have choices here... I can continue to feel the judgement, and all the aches and pains that brings me.... Or I can ask a question: What do I
need to do to feel more satisfied?
For now, I am finding comfort in being more loving to my inner child, connecting with her several times in the day, and as soon as I hear 'the' critical voice, loving myself more (not blocking what is being said, but slowing down the judgement) Flow is coming back to my life... Being at the right place at the right time.
Relationships are my theme at the moment, without even trying.... Is this because I am deepening the relationship with myself?? People, friends, clients, strangers are all opening up to me about relationships, asking for my counsel... Which I am amused about as I am single. So of course, hearing the outer relationship talk, to understand that my Higher Self is communicating to me, cards on the table, I want my partner.
So to the drawing board I start to go... As soon as I start, the 'voice I know so well is saying, "Really, you want ALL that, in one person" Who are you to think/ are good enough to get the heart, soul, emotional connection, the Divine Masculine, one who can fully support me, as well as being utterly gorgeous and my best friend, be super intelligent and is passionate about living the eco warrior dream? The voice then adds, rather sarcastically 'Really"?? So being familiar and comfortable in the wounded or little me, I felt myself retreating, going smaller and then the 'Oh well, then anyone will do... ' And I
still get amazed as to why I am still kissing frogs??!!
So today, I found myself in Church. Which it has been a LONG time since I was last in one, besides for weddings and funerals. And today's sermon was on God & Sex which bolted me upright and got me into my listening ears, as it is hot on
the money as to where I am. The Pastor, being in his mid 30's was down to earth and honest. He spoke from his heart and experience. He is a family man and spoke of his wife with sincerity and honouring. Not the la-di-da honouring but plain
and simple - she is my rock, my best friend, soul and spiritual connection, amazing.... And the words kept flowing.... I could feel he meant it, truly meant it and was living 'the possible'
Sex he said is Intimate, and so much more so when you are with someone you are commited to, because you know they are there with you for it ALL. It is for Recreation because it is fun, and fun is better when you are with someone you know really well. And for Procreation: The energetic force which can be created when there is the ultimate intimate connection is so Divine, and so connected with the Divine Creator, that Life can be created. This sermon has got me thinking, big time!! Firstly of course, deep deep gratitude that I am in the flow. Being in this particular House of God, today of all days,
with my heart open, to hear these words ring true... At just the right time when I needed to hear them. And in that vunerable space, being Honest with myself, that as independent and self-sufficient as I like to be, I DO want a partner....
One who satisfies me in ALL of who I am and who wants to be Great together... Just read: The Highest Form of Human Intelligence is to observe yourself without judgement!
Thank you Judy, for inviting me to speak at the Women in Spirit Breakfast, this has allowed me to delve deeper into what I really want which part of me I am going to listen to to get me there. I have also added a foot note to my list of wants:
yummy, delightful and delicious sex!
An abundance of love to you
Love
Dawn
x
I have been spending more and more time with my inner child since the talk, spending good quality time with my child self, and loving it!! and can start to feel her loving me back. A very gentle and subtle loving which I am nurturing. Nurturing me for a change, not just others :)
And with that, also being so much more aware of my 'inner critical parent' So much so, I am able to hear how much other people critise in my outer world... Did not realise how much of this happens on a hourly basis... People are constantly
complaining, or being hard on themselves. No wonder I am dissatisfied with my life, if I am being critical of myself, then I am naturally being critical of my life and life around me.
In this coming back to me, the inner time, listening to myself, I am realising that the life I am currently living, is what I dreamed about 18 months ago, I AM LIVING the life I dreamed of!! And I am still dissatisfied... Interesting to
observe (it is taking will-power here not to slip back into the familiar judging self)
I am seeing the judging of the dissatifaction is causing resistance, I am blocking myself... So I have choices here... I can continue to feel the judgement, and all the aches and pains that brings me.... Or I can ask a question: What do I
need to do to feel more satisfied?
For now, I am finding comfort in being more loving to my inner child, connecting with her several times in the day, and as soon as I hear 'the' critical voice, loving myself more (not blocking what is being said, but slowing down the judgement) Flow is coming back to my life... Being at the right place at the right time.
Relationships are my theme at the moment, without even trying.... Is this because I am deepening the relationship with myself?? People, friends, clients, strangers are all opening up to me about relationships, asking for my counsel... Which I am amused about as I am single. So of course, hearing the outer relationship talk, to understand that my Higher Self is communicating to me, cards on the table, I want my partner.
So to the drawing board I start to go... As soon as I start, the 'voice I know so well is saying, "Really, you want ALL that, in one person" Who are you to think/ are good enough to get the heart, soul, emotional connection, the Divine Masculine, one who can fully support me, as well as being utterly gorgeous and my best friend, be super intelligent and is passionate about living the eco warrior dream? The voice then adds, rather sarcastically 'Really"?? So being familiar and comfortable in the wounded or little me, I felt myself retreating, going smaller and then the 'Oh well, then anyone will do... ' And I
still get amazed as to why I am still kissing frogs??!!
So today, I found myself in Church. Which it has been a LONG time since I was last in one, besides for weddings and funerals. And today's sermon was on God & Sex which bolted me upright and got me into my listening ears, as it is hot on
the money as to where I am. The Pastor, being in his mid 30's was down to earth and honest. He spoke from his heart and experience. He is a family man and spoke of his wife with sincerity and honouring. Not the la-di-da honouring but plain
and simple - she is my rock, my best friend, soul and spiritual connection, amazing.... And the words kept flowing.... I could feel he meant it, truly meant it and was living 'the possible'
Sex he said is Intimate, and so much more so when you are with someone you are commited to, because you know they are there with you for it ALL. It is for Recreation because it is fun, and fun is better when you are with someone you know really well. And for Procreation: The energetic force which can be created when there is the ultimate intimate connection is so Divine, and so connected with the Divine Creator, that Life can be created. This sermon has got me thinking, big time!! Firstly of course, deep deep gratitude that I am in the flow. Being in this particular House of God, today of all days,
with my heart open, to hear these words ring true... At just the right time when I needed to hear them. And in that vunerable space, being Honest with myself, that as independent and self-sufficient as I like to be, I DO want a partner....
One who satisfies me in ALL of who I am and who wants to be Great together... Just read: The Highest Form of Human Intelligence is to observe yourself without judgement!
Thank you Judy, for inviting me to speak at the Women in Spirit Breakfast, this has allowed me to delve deeper into what I really want which part of me I am going to listen to to get me there. I have also added a foot note to my list of wants:
yummy, delightful and delicious sex!
An abundance of love to you
Love
Dawn
x